Why Love is close to Hate?

What you feel, is what you want to know from the person you love. No, it isn’t possession. It is knowing the value of that person if he is worth your love. But why is it that you kept on loving him, you love his every bit of imperfection. And why is it that you can’t stop that other feeling, the feeling of valuing yourself more than him, that you should protect your heart, and be cautious about it. I’d rather be on that side though, but am I selfish? I thought love was selfless, because you should prioritize the person you love more than yourself.

For me, it is unfair, life is unfair, love is unfair. I just want to be true in reality, I promised myself that I shouldn’t be dumb enough to fall from those nonsense, or in love. I know that playing safe is much more dangerous, and you should be careful too. Love doesn’t make you dumb, it makes you wise. It always depend on the person, many of us have different perceptions in love, because many of us are destined to find our other half. It wasn’t difficult for me to choose someone I love, in fact I prefer hate instead of love. I hate you, I really hate you, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you. Quite confusing, isn’t it? It makes me save my heart, and I prefer to think with my mind.

I love you, maybe I’m just difficult to be loved back or to be understood. Haven’t you forgotten, I was broken back then. I just want you to be here, if you still want to. It’s okay if you leave, I understand. I guess, I’m not the one for you, and you’re not the one for me. That’s the reality of love, even if it hurts me to accept it, but I must be strong enough and stand on my own feet. Love, makes you choose, whether to be strong or remain stagnant for the rest of your life.

But, why should I hate you, if deep inside of me still craves your undying love.

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Castle Of Glass

My siblings were ruthlessly murdered,
while my mother hid me, then she slowly disappeared.
Only the crimson blood flooded through the lonely streets,
I got terrified and ran away, struggling to escape the madness.

You warmly took me in to your home without any hesitations.
I was having troubles adjusting because of my trust issues.
Yet, you were very patient and kind.
I doubt, you’re just wasting your time.

You are ridiculous,
but it was fun to be with you.
There was this one time you bought me an annoying chew toy,
so I ended up chewing the couch.

I boisterously howl every five o’ clock on the morning,
mark my territory to every corner of the house,
endlessly chasing the neighbor’s cat,
and ripping off every of your shiny shoes I see.

It was Friday afternoon, I was digging out our neighbor’s yard.
Suddenly, a familiar face came out from a van.
I was unfortunately caught by a dog catcher,
I was beginning to feel fear, it was him. The dogslaughter.

I glared upon to that cruel man. “He’s the one who killed my family.”, I said.
Vengeance, is the only choice.
I engraved my jaw into his neck,
until I catch sight of death within his unholy eyes.

You saw stains of blood, gradually dripping on my muzzle.
You saw the bloodthirsty monster, and I ferociously grumble.
I don’t how to explain, because I cannot speak.
Thus, I am ready to face for my end, now that I am fulfilled.

I stood still, waiting for your castigation.
My life will be a privilege to be taken by you.
A man who befriended a beast,
and a beast who become a faithful companion.

You were mourning for my death, and I felt your bleak tears.
I thank you for giving me freedom,
I am sorry for all of my mischievousness.
I promise that I will always be by your side, Master.

Ironically Fixed

One mistake will be forgiven or forgotten. Yet, what if that mistake is solved by another mistake? And, the majority of the people thought that it is the easiest way out of the problem. This is the problem, many of us became heartless and never thinking twice about our decisions in life.

We grow up and we don’t care, without noticing that the people that are closest to our hearts are starting to grow old, waiting for their chapters to end. Selfishness conquered our soul, that is why we always ended up regretting in the end.

You thought that the love of another stranger will give you eternal happiness. You gave your trust together with your flesh, and all that he has left for you is disgust. One mistake is enough, but you decided to murder your little angel. That child knows no sin, his innocence protects him from being part of a devil’s scheme. You were carrying the gift of God, your own sunshine that will give you enlightenment. You denied and chose to play safe. But, did you know that playing safe is much more exposed to a collision course?

You have fallen between cracks, and that is when the malignant beasts tyrannized and molested your breath of life. Insanity spread just like a deadly virus, which immediately sends you to the gallows. You relinquish your own life, hoping that you did the right thing, believing that this will ease the grief that you are feeling. You are blind, your child forgives you, yet you didn’t forgive yourself. One mistake is enough, learn to forgive but never forget. There are many chances to be a better person again, don’t limit your choices.

You Are Beautiful

Easy to get, Easy to forget.
Hard to get, Hard to forget.

Know your worth. You are not some kind of toy that was given to a spoiled brat and you are definitely not a toy, you are a lady. Your feelings are true and it deserves to be treated with respect.

You have a loving heart, don’t listen to their envious words, you know yourself better than them and most especially you know what your heart wants, it is love.

You have a beautiful mind, the way you think, the way you create a beautiful world with your creative ideas, the colors inside of you blasts into every direction and that is when you get to stand out from the crowd.

You have charming eyes that sees the truth of beauty, and when someone look at you, your eyes expresses thousands of emotions, words that are unsaid, and a girl who cried for a love that she can never have, yet her eyes still sparkles like the stars at night.

You have soft lips that smiles delightfully even if you faked it, remember this, that no one, as in no one can ever make that smile even more beautiful than you. You have music within you, you have a voice of an angel even if your voice sounds like you have gargled muriatic acid every morning. You know? It is not about how you sing, it is about enjoying the way you express yourself, you have got a jolly sense of humor that makes everybody smile and laugh hysterically.

You have a body that reproduces life from many generations, and that gave the whole world a reason to believe in miracles. Your body have scars? bruises? wrinkles? stretch marks? or lost one leg or one arm or maybe both. Are you not contented with yourself because your fat, skinny, tall, short, or you have a different skin color or have a different hairdo or even the way you dress up yourself is different from the others?

Listen to me, hear me out. My dear, you are unique, that’s why you can’t copy someone’s uniqueness. God created you with a purpose in life. He didn’t created you to be called ugly because He created you to be beautiful. In His eyes it hurts Him to see you cry because you, yourself, you can’t see how beautiful you are. I mean, you have the guts to tell yourself that you have the face of a horse butt. Let me ask you this question, when will you have the guts to start telling yourself that you are beautiful? You don’t have to look in the mirror to determine beauty or criticize yourself, you have to look inside your heart because that’s what matters the most. Learn to love yourself, learn to take care of yourself, learn to be a better person, and be a badass lady with class and awesomeness.

You are beautiful, don’t you ever forget that.

Almost.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue.

The day I caught a glimpse of you,

is the time you entrapped me with your alluring gloom.

 

It was an honor to be given a chance to be with you,

whenever you needed someone to feed you,
to cleanse your pale skin,

or to even change your grimy bed sheet.

 

You bear a grudge against yourself,

being delusional by the afflicted curse that has left you in pain.

Like a delicate misanthrope,

lost in the world of pandemonium.

 

I asked Him if He would just take me instead.

You deserve so much better than being caged, so I am willing to unchain you.

Love knows no bounds or even limits yet it demands sacrifice.

It is complicated to love someone like you, but it will be an everlasting torment if I ever lose you.

 

Have you ever wondered what its like to live a beautiful life?

You envy people so much, that you started to overlook yourself.

Everyday and every night, I always admire your unbelievable strength to withstand this trial.

A chance that is worth the risk, a chance for the two of us.

 

I will stay, even if it takes me forever.

I will stay, even if you kept on pushing me away.

I will stay, even if you didn’t say goodbye.

I will stay and wait for you, even if you will never return for me.

 

Roses somber, and only thorns stayed.

Violets are gray, just like how your skin fades.

The night I last saw your broken smile,

is the time I lost the love of my life.